Aug 16

The Day I Listened To My Soul

Just over two years ago, a lot of people wondered what I was doing when I gave up the first business that I’d spent 5 years building from scratch and the blood, sweat and tears that went into it.

My son, Joe was due to go to university in a few months which was hard in itself as his mum, letting go, and it also meant that I was going to lose the financial help I’d received as a single parent.

I was full of fear and panic and asked myself continually how was I going to cope without a job, after letting go of my business in order to follow my calling which was screaming at me to follow.

Despite the sheer panic, my calling was louder and my soul KNEW I had to honour this, I could not ignore it any longer. I had clear instructions on what to do – and after a few months of recovering from burn out, I did as I was told. It started off as guidance but because I procrastinated on it it became a continual shout.

I was also scared stupid about following through with this purpose but I now felt the choice had been taken away, and so I stepped in it and embraced the fear, found my total passion and excitement and ran with it. I give thanks every single day that I listened and took the action. The intuitive voice instructed me to write my life story because the highly sensitive young girl who was placed in a mental health unit aged 15 for 16 months of her life, had a lot to say after being invisible for most of her life. After not being heard for a long enough period of time, even though my actions spoke loudly – burning my arms, talking of suicide, becoming almost mute and a recluse in my bedroom I formed a set of very damaging and insidious beliefs about myself and the world around me.

The beliefs over the years, expanded into sheer self-hate and loathing which my actions displayed continually.

By the time I was 28 and had my son, I was still living a very dysfunctional life but my pure unconditional love for Joe became so strong it gave me for the first time a reason to live and not just survive.

It was a long, painful but transformational journey and it took about another ten years to really make headway in my own self-belief and life choices because I had found ingenious ways to hide my true self so very well. You’ve heard of the phrase “peeling back the layers” well mine were like having to be rebirthed as the shit was so deep and the traits I lived with and took on as my own were my identity through and through, that was Sam, the sick girl.

Now when it comes to the here and now and who I am today and what I have given my life to, if I ever have the slightest wobble I jump right back into that teenager’s shoes and instantly know they no longer belong to me or have any inclination to wear. It creates a force within me that is so bloody powerful it forces through the current struggle every time and I just know that I will make it, whatever challenge I have.

This brings me to this:

If you feel anything deep within you that is as powerful as this or holds a special power for you, then it 100% needs to be shared with this universe because I promise you that it will help a lot of other people. Listen to that heart centred voice as it knows your truth before you allow the crazy ego, critical voice to stampede through your mind. It’s by listening to that inner guidance that you find peace, purpose and a new way of being.

I help people who are on a mission in this world who have listened to that voice and allowing it to create their purpose, these beautiful people are often found in the shape of coaches, therapists and speakers. I help them to create a much bigger impact which brings in increased income and leverage for what they do and are here for. We do this by telling your story, that absolute powerful story that changes people lives. These people are the ones who have come to the place where they are also ready to embrace their fears, as I did because this force is way bigger than anything they feel. They know it’s not about them but what they are here to do and that needs massive momentum to be shared widely.

It’s not about following a programme, or a course, it’s about connecting with your heart and stepping up, despite your critical voice. Time to be bold, brave and real for your people, your people who felt like you used to do. Like the ones that live in your memory, like the self-harming, reclusive, terrified girl I used to be. Them.

They need you and you can reach them far more easily by telling your story and that’s where I come in. I’ve never successfully used any marketing strategies as they leave me cold, and put me into my head as they take me away from my true self and no-one does that now I’ve found her again.

One of my core beliefs is: “I just show up as myself and my clients appear” and they do, over and over. My story has done that for me as it can do for you if you are prepared to not let fear stop you that is.

It isn’t about being manipulative as some like to suggest, or being stuck in an old story, another line I’ve heard more than once, it’s about turning the pain you once felt into purpose. That’s exactly what it is.

What else it isn’t:

Getting stuck with just yet another task to do. Getting overwhelmed. Wasting money on something that doesn’t work for your business. Being left to your own devices once you’re “in”.

If your intuitive voice is calling you, please allow me to help as that’s why I listened to mine. Book a call with me using the link in the comments below.

P.s I’m never going to shut up on this by the way  – that’s me just answering to my inner critic who just exclaimed “oh not this again Sam, they’ll all be sick of hearing it”. Well, get lost critic.


You can read my full story here, from when I was ten years old and what happened to me. I was admitted to a psychiatric unit at fifteen and continued to suffer throughout my adult life with feelings of self-hatred, fear, darkness and not knowing who I was. I used addictions to help me to cope on the outside when the inside was chaotic. I finally found my healing and had a burning desire to share this with the universe to give love, hope and inspiration to others in pain.

Don’t tell me the moon is shining; show me the glint of light on broken glass

Anton Chekhov