Two years ago, my beautiful higher self was screaming in a loud voice at me to take notice and listen up. "Hey Sam, just stop - what the hell you are doing?

Love yourself enough to stop and be. Now listen here, I know best, not your ego driving you forwards like an express train. When you were ten, you wanted to write. Creative writing was your thing. You wanted to become an author and a journalist because you have an inquisitive mind, a way with words and also a big heart to help others.

And now, after this long and exhausting journey, you have found yourself on, from childhood trauma and decades of untruths to uncover you are ready to be the true you, write and share your story and then you're going to show others a powerful way to do just that.

I'd like you to sit down, plan your story so that others can make sense of it and put that pen to paper, girl. You have a lot to say so don't hold back. You have my permission to share your truths, forget the judgement you may receive because if you listen to those voices, you are trapping yourself all over again. Besides, they may be supportive and encouraging voices, and you may just help some folk in the way your heart desires.

Then once you've done that, you'll create a book. Then after then, I have no plan for you, other than to get that book into the hands of as many people that will benefit from it as possible. Be led by your heart this time, not your head. Have faith in yourself and me, as I am your truth and your time is now.”

So that’s what happened, and up until to now, I have now helped dozens of beautiful souls to write and create their books, sharing pieces of their heart to heal others and themselves. My mission is to dedicate my life to this, my life’s purpose.

THE INVISIBLE GIRL

You can read my full story here, from when I was ten years old and what happened to me. I was admitted to a psychiatric unit at fifteen and continued to suffer throughout my adult life with feelings of self-hatred, fear, darkness and not knowing who I was. I used addictions to help me to cope on the outside when the inside was chaotic. I finally found my healing and had a burning desire to share this with the universe to give love, hope and inspiration to others in pain.

The first draft is just you telling yourself the story

Terry Pratchett